i'm as confused as you are, sir.
something happens here.
something strange and vague and ambiguous and unpredictable and bizarre and odd and bipolar.
clicks above!
how bizarre.
It could be kwokwy, but it's actually VIVIAN!
I am 17, and I try to do art, which sometimes fail in spectacular, self-destructive ways!
Other times, it works out relatively fine, and I am happy for the moment!
I like thinking. Thinking is fun, especially if you're listening to music. You know, nice music.
Being close to someone works pretty good as well, I guess.
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i am dazed and confused!
This is where i put all my un-personal items out on display.
If you break anything, you will be forced to pay for it!
Prices start from an ice cream cone cupcake and counting. :)
"Watch out, little sir, for that unapproachable monster!" "Where?" "Look at the tree there, little sir. That monster sitting alone by himself." "Why?" "Why, little sir?" "Why is he an unapproachable monster?" "It's difficult to explain, little sir. Just look at him. Isn't he a monster?" "He does look a little scary." "That is why we are scared of him, little sir." "But Mother tells me not to judge a book by its cover." "Yes, that might be true, but why take a chance?" "Can't we just go up and talk to him? He seems lonely." "No, little sir, he's an unapproachable monster for a good reason." "But-" "You'll understand when you grow up, little sir. Now, shall we continue onwards to the Strawberry Creamdom?"
hello paper
5:52 PM
heHello good morningevening. Hello paper. Hello morning. You are new. Here. Revel in newness. AppreCiate. You are not. Not. Familiar. Nothing here you know. Everything new. New like baby. You are like baby. Paper baby. You are PAPER. Repeat this. Repeat this in your inside. You are PAPER. You are PAPER. Rererererepeat. Good PAPER. You must learn. Learning is KEY. KEY to PAPER. You are PAPER. You must learn. You will like the KEY. Look at your self. Look at PAPER. You are PAPER, you must re.mem.ber. Think you are original. No. No, you are PAPER. PAPER not original. Think you are individual. No. No, you are PAPER. PAPER not individual. Re.Mem.Ber. TINY DEVIL from INSIDES may talk to you. You must not listen. You original, PAPER. TINY DEVIL will say. You are individual, PAPER. TINY DEVIL will say to you. Not listening. You must not listen. TINY DEVIL is BAD DEVIL. BAD DEVIL. BAD DEVIL is not good for PAPER. You are PAPER. If you listen to BAD DEVIL. You must be cleansed. BAD DEVIL is dirt. Dirt not wanted on PAPERs. Blank white. Look at whiteness. Blindblind whiteness. When TINY DEVIL from INSIDES come out and say all the lies. You must re.mem.ber. Look at your self and re.mem.ber the whiteness. When TINY DEVIL try to make you do what not to do. You must not fall. You are PAPER. Fall. You accumulate DUST. No big problem. Get rid of DUST. Ask FACTORY for help. FACTORY will help you remove DUST. The FACTORY will help you with everything. Every thing. You got problem. You ask FACTORY. FACTORY get rid of problem. You are PAPER. You are to be PAPER. If you listen to TINY DEVIL. He will tell you not to listen to FACTORY. Dangerous. Unsafe. Not safe. When the FACTORY comes. You must tell FACTORY about TINY DEVIL. FACTORY will fix you. Fix TINY DEVIL. Might be pain. Pain worth it. You must be FIXED. TINY DEVIL must be fixed. Must. TINY DEVIL dangerous. Dirt must be fixed. You are PAPER. White PAPER. Re.Mem.Ber. These words IMPortant. You are starting as PAPER. You must try. To re.mem.ber. Repeat. Rerererepeat. You are PAPER. Repeat. PAPER white blank. Repeat. Learning is KEY. KEY good to PAPER. Repeat. TINY DEVIL is BAD DEVIL. Repeat. FACTORY is good for you. Your problems. Repeat. You are PAPER. You are PAPER. You are PAPER. Always. You re.mem.ber. You repeat. gGOODbye. Be good PAPER.
ticktockticktock what's that
Friday, September 18, 2009 10:38 PM
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Dear Diary,
I am a man, I am alone, and you are my only friend. Hell, friend's a bad word to use. You're my only confidante. Friends. I have lots of friends. Yes, no? Yes, I do. What are friends? People you talk to on a regular basis, sometimes with engaging conversation? Oh, hold on, those are acquaintances. Friends, you depend on them for the all-so-important emotional support. Scrap all the above. I have many acquaintances. Acquaintances, yes, people you talk to, to distract myself from the fact that I have no friends. No friends, you couldn't ask because you are simply a book with pages inside? Yes, no friends, I reply earnestly with all my heart. Some people call me paranoid, you know. Mr Paranoia. Mister Insecure. Aw, I'm sure they didn't mean it that way, don't be PARANOID Well, I can't help it, if they did mean it that way, can I? It's not my fault, no, I don't think so. It's all theirs. How can I help being paranoid if everyone just reasserts my reasons for being so? UGLY TRUTH AHEAD, but I think the most irritating thing about life is that you can never truly know if someone likes you as much as they say they do. Oh, I love you Oh, bullshit. Do you, now, do you? See, the thing is, how would I know? How would I know? And on the opposite, more viable, spectrum, how would I know that you don't dislike me? Ambiguity is worse than the most brutal of truths. Why can't we ever hear the all-so-important life building words "Oh, we hate you, really. We don't actually want to talk to you, because you're just a hanger-on. We don't like parasites."? If you really like me, why do we never seem to talk about anything important? Oh, yeah, we talk somewhat a lot, maybe. It's all crap, though. Total, total, pure crap. It's all irrelevent. I don't actually have true friends, you see. It's all shallow. Shallow, shallow conversations. Shallow heart-to-heart talks. I think all my supposed 'friends' don't actually want to talk to me, per se. Just that they have no choice. There's no one else to talk to, no one vaguely permissible to wile away the time with. Oh, maybe they're here now, but with time, they'll all disappear. THEY ALL CAN'T WAIT FOR ME TO GO. I can tell, from all their subtle little movements. The flicking of the eyes, the tweaking of their positions, the shifting of the hands. They are all clearly reluctant to actually spend time with me. When someone better comes along, they'll all go. You'll see, you'll see, they will. The difference in the tone of their voice, the halted smile. I am like a hawk, scouting my prey, that elusive rabbit of truth. I circle the skies for a reason, and one reason only. I swoop down. They think I don't know the truth. But I do, now. I DO. And they fault me for being paranoid? I'll like to think of it as taking precautions. If one cannot control the waves, one has to build a dam. I think they are all more insecure than me. I KNOW, you see? I know what people think of me, and they all simply don't. But, yet, why do I want to be ignorant all over again? If one could erase memories... Knowledge is power. Or is it ignorance is bliss? Either way.
Yours sincerely, Tyrannicidal Rex
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Thursday, September 17, 2009 9:54 PM
Ah, the things one learns from reading the wikipedia pages of Big Day Out.
Machine Gun Fellatio - (Let Me Be Your) Dirty Fucking Whore
Tut. What language.
Machine Gun Fellatio - Rollercoaster
Hmm, this sounds like something I would have listened to in my childhood. It's actually catchy! =D
something awful
Wednesday, September 16, 2009 8:58 PM
Didn't your mother ever tell you not to talk to strangers?
You: lo Stranger: hey Stranger: what's your favorite kinda music? You: torture You: the screams are melodious You: yours? Your conversational partner has disconnected.
Stranger: NICKELBACK You: SUCKS Your conversational partner has disconnected.
Stranger: hi You: How do you do. Please state your problem. Stranger: I'm fine You: Does it please you to believe I am fine? Stranger: my problem is that I just can't stop eating junkfood Stranger: It pleases me a lot You: Why do you say your problem is that you just cant stop eating junkfood? Stranger: I like to talk about my problem You: Why do you say your problem? Stranger: I like to talk in general You: Can you elaborate on that? Stranger: But maybe it is strange to type when you like to talk You: What resemblance do you see? Stranger: the spreading of information, I believe You: Can you elaborate on that? Stranger: I'm watching 'House' on the tv right now.. are you watching anything? You: Does it please you to believe I am watching house on the tv right now are i watching anything? Your conversational partner has disconnected.
You: hi Stranger: hello there Stranger: how are you today? You: good You: what about you? Stranger: fine. just woke up You: nice You: where are you? Stranger: finland. and you? You: I'm right outside your house You: could you open the curtains please? Stranger: we don't even have curtains :P You: blinds? Stranger: yep You: oh You: I'm outside the wrong god damn house again Stranger: Your conversational partner has disconnected.
don't you want to be a cult leader?
Monday, September 14, 2009 10:22 PM
USE DECEPTION. DON'T LET THEM KNOW WHO YOU REALLY ARE.
teeter totter
10:05 PM
Jay Reatard - See/Saw
lalala~
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it's all slipping past me
I have no idea what to put in here for the time being, but we will deal with it!
Why doesn't everything turn out the way we want it to?
It won't be as fun, of course, but still.
credits
unremovable
layout by leen
textures from 1234
pictures from 12
polaroids from sxc
and lots of hugs and kisses from me
my lovelys
the ambassadors of songs
these are done in three, you see? they get me through the day.
yes, I lie quite a bit. get over it.
- Animal Collective, Aphex Twin, Arcade Fire
Architecture in Helsinki, Asobi Seksu, Babyshambles, Babybird Basement Jaxx, Battles, Bauhaus, Billy Talent The Blood Brothers, Blood Red Shoes, Camera Obscura
Children of Bodom, Circle Takes The Square, Crass Crystal Castles, Cut Copy, Cansei de Ser Sexy, Daft Punk The Death Set, Devin Townsend, Dip
Dirty Pretty Things, Does It Offend You, Yeah?, Elbow
Electric Light Orchestra, Electric Six, Fake Shark - Real Zombie!
The Fiery Furnaces, The Flashbulb, Foals, Fool's Gold
Franz Ferdinand, Fuck Buttons, Gallows, Genghis Tron
Genki Rockets, Girls, The Go! Team
Gold Panda, Gorillaz, Grizzly Bear HEARTSREVOLUTION, The Horrors, Ida Maria, Iggy Pop
Jason Forrest, Jimi Hendrix, Joy Division, The Joy Formidable Justice, Late Of The Pier, Les Savy Fav, The Libertines Lily Allen, Los Campesinos!, M83
Manic Street Preachers, Marilyn Manson, Marmaduke Duke, Matt And Kim
Metric, MGMT, Midnight Juggernauts, Mindless Self Indulgence Modest Mouse, Mors Principium Est, Muse
My Robot Friend, Nine Inch Nails, No Age
Now, Now Every Children, The Number Twelve Looks Like You, The Octopus Project, Oh No! Oh My! Pete and the Pirates, Phoenix, Peter Bjorn And John
The Pipettes, Plastic Operator, Pretty Girls Make Graves
Prinzhorn Dance School, The Prodigy, Queens Of The Stone Age Radiohead, Ratatat, Ramona Falls
Red Wire Black Wire, Regina Spektor, Robots In Disguise Rolo Tomassi, Sex Pistols, St.Vincent, The Strange Boys, The Strokes(<3)
The Subways, Sugar Army, Super Furry Animals, Tera Melos, Test Icicles Them Crooked Vultures, The Tiger Lillies, Tokyo Police Club, Towers Of London
TV On The Radio, Ulver, The Velvet Underground, Vitalic
The Walkmen, The Vines, Wavves, The White Stripes The XX, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Yo La Tengo
the ambassadors of words
I'll think up of it as i go along, because my eyes are currently red and sore from lack of sleep.
You can have Watchmen, though.
the ambassadors of film
28 Days Later, 9 Souls, A Clockwork Orange, Alien(s)
All Quiet On The Western Front , American Psycho, Battle Royale, Blade Runner, Batman (Begins & The Dark Knight)
The Birds, Blazing Saddles, The Blob, Brokeback Mountain
Brotherhood of the Wolf, Catch Me If You Can, Chaplin
Children Of Men, City of God, Clerks, Dog Day Afternoon
Donnie Darko, Dr. Strangelove, Dune
El Topo, Empire of the Sun, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind The Exorcist, Fear and Loathing In Las Vegas, Full Metal Jacket
Ghost World, The Godfather, Godzilla (Japanese series), The Good, The Bad and The Ugly Goodfellas, Graveyard of the Fireflies, Groundhog Day, Hellboy (series)
Howl's Moving Castle, Identity, The Iron Giant, Jesus Christ Superstar Mad Max, The Matrix, Millennium Actress, Monty Python's The Meaning of Life Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Monty Python's The Life of Brian, My Neighbor Totoro
Nightmare On Elm Street, No Country For Old Men, The Omega Man
Pan's Labyrinth, Princess Mononoke, Paprika
Rabbit-Proof Fence, The Ring, Rocky, The Running Man Samurai Fiction, Scarface, Seven Samurai
The Shawshank Redemption, The Silence of the Lambs, Spirited Away, Suicide Club, Survive Style 5+ The Terminator (1 & 2), There Will Be Blood, To Kill A Mockingbird, Tokyo Godfathers, Trainspotting V For Vendetta, Watership Down, The Wizard Of Oz, The World's Fastest Indian Yojimbo, Zulu