i'm as confused as you are, sir.
something happens here.
something strange and vague and ambiguous and unpredictable and bizarre and odd and bipolar.
clicks above!
how bizarre.
It could be kwokwy, but it's actually VIVIAN!
I am 17, and I try to do art, which sometimes fail in spectacular, self-destructive ways!
Other times, it works out relatively fine, and I am happy for the moment!
I like thinking. Thinking is fun, especially if you're listening to music. You know, nice music.
Being close to someone works pretty good as well, I guess.
description
i am dazed and confused!
This is where i put all my un-personal items out on display.
If you break anything, you will be forced to pay for it!
Prices start from an ice cream cone cupcake and counting. :)
There will come soft rains and the smell of the ground, And swallows circling with their shimmering sound;
And frogs in the pool singing at night, And wild plum trees in tremulous white;
Robins will wear their feathery fire, Whistling their whims on a low fence-wire;
And not one will know of the war, not one Will care at last when it is done.
Not one would mind, neither bird nor tree, If mankind perished utterly;
And Spring herself when she woke at dawn Would scarcely know that we were gone.
check and balance
5:30 PM
I suddenly had an irrational, almost blinding, thought to make an animated movie.
On that note, I do need to learn how to draw human figures properly. Like, really, properly.
old habits die hard
3:35 PM
All 4 fake trailers from Grindhouse.
Also, HOBO WITH A SHOTGUN!
The streets just birth to a stray dog ... who is now fed up - LIVING IN THE STREETS AS FUCK
alas, alas, alas
Thursday, September 3, 2009 11:51 PM
I think I am losing the last of my balance.
Alas, alas, alas.
I shall fall, deep, deep into the dark pit.
Is that a light I see?
No, I think I'm just passing out.
rolo tomassi
10:55 PM
The whole album.
I shall test the endurance of my ears to the sound of an epileptic fit. As imagined by a mental asylum of juiced-up videogame ravers.
P.S: Guilty pleasure time!
Britney Spears - If You Seek Amy
She's really not that bad...
the last duke: part deux
9:48 PM
[creeping.normalcy]
Dear Paul,
I think you should have remembered where we left off, shouldn't you? Yes, of course. Wonderful! Let's continue, shall we?
...It struck me as I went down that moment that I might have regretted being quite as immature as I was. It was a startling burst of something - maturity or otherwise. What if what I had always secretly, in the deepest darkest corners of my heart, wished for actually did happen? What if I had, even for the fleetest moment, gotten my dream? What if that was possible? What if I regretted it?
What then? I crept down the stairs slowly. What was I actually hoping for? Perhaps a return to normality, perhaps a change to chaos. My young mind was abuzz with various thoughts.
I saw the last remnants of the old world crumble before my eyes.
As my family stared at me with their eyeless eyes, and I stared back at them with my pair, I suddenly irrationally thought of a poem in my head.
First they came for the Communists, and I didn't speak up, because I wasn't a Communist. Then they came for the Jews, and I didn't speak up, because I wasn't a Jew. Then they came for the Catholics, and I didn't speak up, because I was a Protestant. Then they came for me, and by that time, there was no one left to speak up for me.
Was I to be the lonely one? Yes, yes, Paul, I know it was still rather immature of me to have thought that way, but you have to admit - it was a very long time ago. We have all grown up, both of us, in our own different ways. I have assimilated, well, mostly. And you? Well, you have too, I think, in your strange way.
Yes, I know what you're thinking. People say we're almost like the same person. Yes, okay, they actually haven't said that (or not to my limited knowledge), but haven't you gotten that feeling? It's just something you know. Sometimes it really doesn't matter if you think you can't understand what they're saying, because human nature really is quite predictable.
Anyway, back to the story. In a short moment, I imagined the world a Rapture, and me, the last unrepentant sinner. Was everyone to be the same?
Had I grown up, or had I regressed into childhood?
Regardless, everyone had left me behind. I mean, that was before I discovered you, so it was a different world. Really! I was effectively alone.
In one fell swoop, I suddenly just couldn't understand what my family was saying to me. Gibberish, or Shakespearean prose, it just didn't matter. None of it made sense. Not a single syllable or sound or noise. I just had the greatest desire in my life to listen to noise rock, right at that very moment. Drown out everything, drown out anything. It was a very strange feeling.
I wonder if I should have been more affected, but I just ... wasn't. Can't you understand, Paul, the anticlimax? You know, like a dog chases after a car. But what will the dog do if it ever catches the car? It wouldn't know what to do with it! Imagine its feelings, the mix of emotions exploding all around its head like an orgy of confusion. I was just confused, I guess, like the dog. I always wanted to be left alone, but my genie had came along with a huge catch. I guess I never really meant it, not to that extent.
I actually don't know how I dealt with it. I must have forgotten already, but maybe I just didn't want to remember. But then's then, and now's now. And now, it's mostly okay.
Gets a bit strange sometimes, though, doesn't it? There's a disconnect between what I say and what people hear. Conversations go odd. You know, the other day I was out with Kaitlin, the one with the flowers? The explosion of colour on her pretty head. Yeah, didn't work out well, I guess. We both got tired of trying to understand each other, I guess. After a while, we just lapsed into silence. Maybe if either of us cared enough, we could have done something fun, but I guess ... we just didn't?
Guess life's not too fun for you either, is it? Anyway, enough from me now. You should visit me more often. I kinda miss you, seeing how nowadays you're the only person I talk to much anymore. You are a silent one, aren't you?
(That's a compliment)
Yours Truly, The Last Duke of Nothingtown
4st7lb
Tuesday, September 1, 2009 8:42 PM
I am in a near-constant state of starvation.
After every hour or so of having dined and sated.
hopscotch
6:29 PM
Feet planted firmly in the middle of square 16, I looked back and seemed to have skipped most of the other squares.
In front of me, the squares extended to infinity. Or was it just the mist covering my eyes? I wasn't quite sure.
What perplexed me now was the thought of my next move.
Where does one go from here?
I was stuck.
rumble in the jungle
2:20 PM
CRABCORE VS DOGCORE VS PARROTCORE
WHO WILL WIN THIS EPIC BATTLE
Attack Attack! - Stick Stickly
CRABCORE!!! CRABCORE!!! CRABCORE!!!
CRABCORE!!!!!!!!!!!!111!!!11 <<3333
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Caninus - Brindle Brickheads
It's actually not a bad song, at all.
Still, DOGCORE!!!!!!!!!1!!!!!
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REAL LIFE PARROTCORE!!!
Hatebeak - Feral Parrot
This isn't too bad as well, actually. Unlike the first song or whatever.
Parrot core. You know, the best thing about the band? Their album's going to be called the Number of the Beak.
PARROT CORE!!!!
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Actually, if you talk on musical merit alone, Caninus pretty rules. I mean, pit bull voices actually do work better than the death growl or whatever normal vocalists try to do. Conveying aggression with a minimum of effort, yay!
And if you want to talk about bizarreness, I mean, PARROT. CORE. (let me repeat that) PARROT CORE. Just imagine telling your friends about how you're listening to a deathgrind band with a parrot as a singer. IMAGINE. PARROTCORE.
But, you know, after saying all that ...
CRABCOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
(seriously, crabcore's retarded)
today, in science class
Monday, August 31, 2009 11:09 PM
We meet a catalyst! Hello, Mr... Catalyst would be fine, thanks. Alright! Mr. Catalyst. So, we've heard you basically ... catalyse. Yes, that's correct. Would you mind explaining to us what that entails, exactly? What do you do, for instance? Oh! Well, that's very easy to explain. You see, I take this reaction, see, and I just make it happen faster. That's basically it. You make it faster? That must be a lot of work. (laughs) Perhaps, but it's more fun than it seems. Fun? Yes, it's sometimes fun to see how things go. You see, reactions happen, and the end product's always going to be the same. I just make it happen faster. Does that create any trouble whatsoever? I mean, some people do like to take it slower-paced. Well, there's ups and downs of everything. I like what I do, but I respect other people's rights to dislike what I do. Have there been any significant events or drama that has happened so far? I mean, looking at other situations, some catalysts have been dealt a really bad hand, to put it lightly. It happens. I'll be lying if I said my job was peachy, but it hasn't been unbearable either. Some people just want to be left alone with their reactions, see, and when it's my job to come in and speed it up, sometimes bad things just happen. Would you mind elaborating? Well, let's just say that I have to learn to control my mouth. (laughs) (laughs) Okay, on the same topic, how do you feel about what you do? I mean, some people really dislike what you do. That can't be helped, you know? There are always people who oppose you, but I try not to let it get me down. In our current day and age, I think it's getting more and more important that you always have someone to push the buttons, to get people to ask more questions, to examine everything they see twice, you know, and I think that's what my job's for. Could they react the thing without me? Perhaps. But what good would that bring about? It would just make them apathetic and careless. So, you're basically, if you don't mind me saying so, there to keep people on their toes? Yes, you could say that, I guess. I think it's really important that we don't get carried away by our successes. Admirable. Well, have you had any regrets? Did you ever feel sorry for anyone? I mean, you must have made mistakes sometimes, right? (laughs) Well, I'm only human. So you have made mistakes, then? Of course, of course. Sometimes, in the heat of the reaction, you just make some stupid comment, see, and things blow up. But I find it really helpful if you remain calm throughout the whole situation. Never let yourself become a spectacle to others, that's my motto. Well, I wish you all the best. Thanks very much for letting us have the interview. My pleasure.
* Sensory deprivation using an Isolation tank, blindfolds, or earplugs, among other methods and devices * Sensory overload * Sleep deprivation * Sex * Fasting * Psychomanteum, a dark-room retreat * Brainwave synchronization also as "Brainwave entrainment" * Glossolalia * Lucid dreaming * Hypnosis * Astral projection * Ego death * Eating * Breathing [/unquote]
Ohmygoodness, they EAT and BREATHE. How fucking amazing is that? :o I didn't know people did that anymore.
People are funny, sometimes.
the inevitable crash
5:09 PM
I suppose Death is as necessary to our constitution as sleep.
I shall rise refreshed in the morning.
Olafur Arnald - Ljósið
large hadron collider
it's all slipping past me
I have no idea what to put in here for the time being, but we will deal with it!
Why doesn't everything turn out the way we want it to?
It won't be as fun, of course, but still.
credits
unremovable
layout by leen
textures from 1234
pictures from 12
polaroids from sxc
and lots of hugs and kisses from me
my lovelys
the ambassadors of songs
these are done in three, you see? they get me through the day.
yes, I lie quite a bit. get over it.
- Animal Collective, Aphex Twin, Arcade Fire
Architecture in Helsinki, Asobi Seksu, Babyshambles, Babybird Basement Jaxx, Battles, Bauhaus, Billy Talent The Blood Brothers, Blood Red Shoes, Camera Obscura
Children of Bodom, Circle Takes The Square, Crass Crystal Castles, Cut Copy, Cansei de Ser Sexy, Daft Punk The Death Set, Devin Townsend, Dip
Dirty Pretty Things, Does It Offend You, Yeah?, Elbow
Electric Light Orchestra, Electric Six, Fake Shark - Real Zombie!
The Fiery Furnaces, The Flashbulb, Foals, Fool's Gold
Franz Ferdinand, Fuck Buttons, Gallows, Genghis Tron
Genki Rockets, Girls, The Go! Team
Gold Panda, Gorillaz, Grizzly Bear HEARTSREVOLUTION, The Horrors, Ida Maria, Iggy Pop
Jason Forrest, Jimi Hendrix, Joy Division, The Joy Formidable Justice, Late Of The Pier, Les Savy Fav, The Libertines Lily Allen, Los Campesinos!, M83
Manic Street Preachers, Marilyn Manson, Marmaduke Duke, Matt And Kim
Metric, MGMT, Midnight Juggernauts, Mindless Self Indulgence Modest Mouse, Mors Principium Est, Muse
My Robot Friend, Nine Inch Nails, No Age
Now, Now Every Children, The Number Twelve Looks Like You, The Octopus Project, Oh No! Oh My! Pete and the Pirates, Phoenix, Peter Bjorn And John
The Pipettes, Plastic Operator, Pretty Girls Make Graves
Prinzhorn Dance School, The Prodigy, Queens Of The Stone Age Radiohead, Ratatat, Ramona Falls
Red Wire Black Wire, Regina Spektor, Robots In Disguise Rolo Tomassi, Sex Pistols, St.Vincent, The Strange Boys, The Strokes(<3)
The Subways, Sugar Army, Super Furry Animals, Tera Melos, Test Icicles Them Crooked Vultures, The Tiger Lillies, Tokyo Police Club, Towers Of London
TV On The Radio, Ulver, The Velvet Underground, Vitalic
The Walkmen, The Vines, Wavves, The White Stripes The XX, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Yo La Tengo
the ambassadors of words
I'll think up of it as i go along, because my eyes are currently red and sore from lack of sleep.
You can have Watchmen, though.
the ambassadors of film
28 Days Later, 9 Souls, A Clockwork Orange, Alien(s)
All Quiet On The Western Front , American Psycho, Battle Royale, Blade Runner, Batman (Begins & The Dark Knight)
The Birds, Blazing Saddles, The Blob, Brokeback Mountain
Brotherhood of the Wolf, Catch Me If You Can, Chaplin
Children Of Men, City of God, Clerks, Dog Day Afternoon
Donnie Darko, Dr. Strangelove, Dune
El Topo, Empire of the Sun, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind The Exorcist, Fear and Loathing In Las Vegas, Full Metal Jacket
Ghost World, The Godfather, Godzilla (Japanese series), The Good, The Bad and The Ugly Goodfellas, Graveyard of the Fireflies, Groundhog Day, Hellboy (series)
Howl's Moving Castle, Identity, The Iron Giant, Jesus Christ Superstar Mad Max, The Matrix, Millennium Actress, Monty Python's The Meaning of Life Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Monty Python's The Life of Brian, My Neighbor Totoro
Nightmare On Elm Street, No Country For Old Men, The Omega Man
Pan's Labyrinth, Princess Mononoke, Paprika
Rabbit-Proof Fence, The Ring, Rocky, The Running Man Samurai Fiction, Scarface, Seven Samurai
The Shawshank Redemption, The Silence of the Lambs, Spirited Away, Suicide Club, Survive Style 5+ The Terminator (1 & 2), There Will Be Blood, To Kill A Mockingbird, Tokyo Godfathers, Trainspotting V For Vendetta, Watership Down, The Wizard Of Oz, The World's Fastest Indian Yojimbo, Zulu