i'm as confused as you are, sir.
something happens here.
something strange and vague and ambiguous and unpredictable and bizarre and odd and bipolar.
clicks above!
how bizarre.
It could be kwokwy, but it's actually VIVIAN!
I am 17, and I try to do art, which sometimes fail in spectacular, self-destructive ways!
Other times, it works out relatively fine, and I am happy for the moment!
I like thinking. Thinking is fun, especially if you're listening to music. You know, nice music.
Being close to someone works pretty good as well, I guess.
description
i am dazed and confused!
This is where i put all my un-personal items out on display.
If you break anything, you will be forced to pay for it!
Prices start from an ice cream cone cupcake and counting. :)
A is for analogy, that tricky monster, double-edged sword B is for belittling, manipulation's the god, imaginations are feckless C is for confident, whether blind or reckless, play-acting to ward D is for definitions, whatever whichever means, time to fuck less E is for ennui, voices grate on the ears, eyelids grow half-shut F is for friendship, the endless cycle of addiction, escape mechanism G is for gravitation, let your heart run the router, some worthless scut H is for hedonism, pleasure for pleasure's sake, morals' for cynicism I is for initiation, performing for the stage, swallowing your pride for another J is for jealousy, oh-so-unescapable, thoughts racing, hearts burning K is for kings, so high on top, so gifted from their mothers L is for lackadaisical, life's endless lethargy, zombie minds slowly turning M is for monotony, this is becoming a drag, creativity slowly smolders
who says romance is dead?
8:51 PM
The Dead Weather - Treat Me Like Your Mother
It's time to M-A-N-I-P-U-late!
shuffle!
Thursday, August 27, 2009 11:04 PM
This is the game to end all internet games (except, of course, for The Game).
Japan, oh, japan. Why do you always make everyone think the worst of you?
so adorable
12:04 AM
I have listened to the Strokes 2000 times on iTunes (not counting all the times on my MP3 player). <3
Most listened songs (in order) - 12:51 (168) - Alone, Together (160) - I Can't Win (151)
P.S: I used a calculator.
the pleasure paradox
Tuesday, August 25, 2009 8:20 PM
Isn't it funny, that the more we deliberately try to achieve happiness, the harder and harder it seems? If our only goal in something is to simply achieve pleasure, we won't get it.
If you draw only because you think it will bring you happiness, you will not feel content. Happiness is such a tease. :)
"Happiness is like a cat, If you try to coax it or call it, it will avoid you; it will never come. But if you pay no attention to it and go about your business, you'll find it rubbing against your legs and jumping into your lap."
An eye for an eye. Your move. :D
it's not fair
7:53 PM
It's not bloody fair that depressives work for me, but not stimulants. It's not fair, and I think you're really mean. :(
Lily Allen - Not Fair
Oh, he treats me with respect, he says he loves me all the time He calls me fifteen times a day, he likes to make sure that I'm fine You know I've never met a man who's made me feel quite so secure He's not like all them other boys, they're all so dumb and immature
There's just one thing that's getting in the way When we go up to bed, you're just no good, it's such a shame I look into your eyes, I want to get to know you And then you make this noise and it's apparent it's all over
It's not fair and I think you're really mean I think you're really mean, I think you're really mean Oh, you're suppose to care But you never make me scream, you never make me scream
Oh, it's not fair and it's really not okay It's really not okay, it's really not okay Oh, you're supposed to care But all you do is take, yeah, all you do is take
Oh, I lie here in the wet patch in the middle of the bed I'm feeling pretty damn hard done by, I spent ages giving head Then I remember all the nice things that you ever said to me Maybe I'm just overreacting, maybe you're the one for me
There's just one thing that's getting in the way When we go up to bed, you're just no good, it's such a shame I look into your eyes, I want to get to know you And then you make this noise and it's apparent it's all over
It's not fair and I think you're really mean I think you're really mean, I think you're really mean Oh, you're supposed to care But you never make me scream, you never make me scream
Oh, it's not fair and it's really not okay It's really not okay, it's really not okay Oh, you're supposed to care But all you do is take, yeah, all you do is take
There's just one thing that's getting in the way When we go up to bed, you're just no good, it's such a shame I look into your eyes, I want to get to know you And then you make this noise and it's apparent it's all over
It's not fair and I think you're really mean I think you're really mean, I think you're really mean Oh, you're supposed to care But you never make me scream, you never make me scream
Oh, it's not fair and it's really not okay It's really not okay, it's really not okay Oh, you're supposed to care But all you do is take, yeah, all you do is take
mr. paranoia
Monday, August 24, 2009 8:22 PM
ohmygod ohmygod ohmygod i'm so sure that they are following me whyaretheydoingthis WHY what did i ever do to them ohgod they're looking STOP STOP STOP don'tbescared nonononono theywon'thurtyouwilltheyihopenot notheywon't aah ssssh maybe they'll go away if i'm quiet enough go away GOAWAY GOAWAY GOAWAY YOU BITCH they've been following me why have they been following me i haven't hurt a soul ever since thatthatthat PLAY that PLAY whatisitcalledagain oh yes the one with the GUYANDGIRL THOSETWOGUYANDGIRL folie a deux madness of two madnessoftwo nowit's THREE ihopethey're FUCKING happy now areyou happy now? huhhappynow i bet they're rejoicing wherearemyparents wherearemyfriends myfamily wherewherewhere they are dead and gone i miss them so much nowit'sjustthemtwo theyfollowmeEVERYWHERE nomatter where i go theyalwaysFOLLOWFOLLOWFOLLOWGETAWAYPLEASEYES i saw the bastard follow me on the street once the darkgreylonelynotquitecrowdedstreet duckedinto the shop FOLLOWED ME THERE TOO iamsoparanoidmuststopmuststop whydoesn'tanyoneNOTICE it's right there infrontoftheir FACE lookatthem look at them it'ssoobvious i want everyone else's IGNORance iwanttobebliss notparanoid i like bliss iwishtheywouldstoptailingme where do they keep their masks their false faces their plastic voices clippedtones clippednails falsewigs ijustwantmyREALlifeback howdidtheygetinsidemyhouse nonono you'renotmymom it's a LIE LIE LIE LIE you're FAKE PLASTIC SUPERFICIAL IT'SALLANACT whereisshewhereismymom GETOUT GETOUT GETOUT can't you leave me be i am being persecuted by ghosts isitjustme
"In seeking to be environmentally safe, it would be better with CD’s to simply take a hammer to them. It would be wise to get all your music together which does not glorify God, but rather glorifies hate, drugs, alcohol, crime, self-mutilation, suicide, murder, bestiality, witchcraft, Satanism, etc and destroy it all! Our main concern is that your heart and mind is environmentally safe from the wicked and perverse corruption of the evil one!"
Oh, Christians, you so funny.
large hadron collider
it's all slipping past me
I have no idea what to put in here for the time being, but we will deal with it!
Why doesn't everything turn out the way we want it to?
It won't be as fun, of course, but still.
credits
unremovable
layout by leen
textures from 1234
pictures from 12
polaroids from sxc
and lots of hugs and kisses from me
my lovelys
the ambassadors of songs
these are done in three, you see? they get me through the day.
yes, I lie quite a bit. get over it.
- Animal Collective, Aphex Twin, Arcade Fire
Architecture in Helsinki, Asobi Seksu, Babyshambles, Babybird Basement Jaxx, Battles, Bauhaus, Billy Talent The Blood Brothers, Blood Red Shoes, Camera Obscura
Children of Bodom, Circle Takes The Square, Crass Crystal Castles, Cut Copy, Cansei de Ser Sexy, Daft Punk The Death Set, Devin Townsend, Dip
Dirty Pretty Things, Does It Offend You, Yeah?, Elbow
Electric Light Orchestra, Electric Six, Fake Shark - Real Zombie!
The Fiery Furnaces, The Flashbulb, Foals, Fool's Gold
Franz Ferdinand, Fuck Buttons, Gallows, Genghis Tron
Genki Rockets, Girls, The Go! Team
Gold Panda, Gorillaz, Grizzly Bear HEARTSREVOLUTION, The Horrors, Ida Maria, Iggy Pop
Jason Forrest, Jimi Hendrix, Joy Division, The Joy Formidable Justice, Late Of The Pier, Les Savy Fav, The Libertines Lily Allen, Los Campesinos!, M83
Manic Street Preachers, Marilyn Manson, Marmaduke Duke, Matt And Kim
Metric, MGMT, Midnight Juggernauts, Mindless Self Indulgence Modest Mouse, Mors Principium Est, Muse
My Robot Friend, Nine Inch Nails, No Age
Now, Now Every Children, The Number Twelve Looks Like You, The Octopus Project, Oh No! Oh My! Pete and the Pirates, Phoenix, Peter Bjorn And John
The Pipettes, Plastic Operator, Pretty Girls Make Graves
Prinzhorn Dance School, The Prodigy, Queens Of The Stone Age Radiohead, Ratatat, Ramona Falls
Red Wire Black Wire, Regina Spektor, Robots In Disguise Rolo Tomassi, Sex Pistols, St.Vincent, The Strange Boys, The Strokes(<3)
The Subways, Sugar Army, Super Furry Animals, Tera Melos, Test Icicles Them Crooked Vultures, The Tiger Lillies, Tokyo Police Club, Towers Of London
TV On The Radio, Ulver, The Velvet Underground, Vitalic
The Walkmen, The Vines, Wavves, The White Stripes The XX, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Yo La Tengo
the ambassadors of words
I'll think up of it as i go along, because my eyes are currently red and sore from lack of sleep.
You can have Watchmen, though.
the ambassadors of film
28 Days Later, 9 Souls, A Clockwork Orange, Alien(s)
All Quiet On The Western Front , American Psycho, Battle Royale, Blade Runner, Batman (Begins & The Dark Knight)
The Birds, Blazing Saddles, The Blob, Brokeback Mountain
Brotherhood of the Wolf, Catch Me If You Can, Chaplin
Children Of Men, City of God, Clerks, Dog Day Afternoon
Donnie Darko, Dr. Strangelove, Dune
El Topo, Empire of the Sun, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind The Exorcist, Fear and Loathing In Las Vegas, Full Metal Jacket
Ghost World, The Godfather, Godzilla (Japanese series), The Good, The Bad and The Ugly Goodfellas, Graveyard of the Fireflies, Groundhog Day, Hellboy (series)
Howl's Moving Castle, Identity, The Iron Giant, Jesus Christ Superstar Mad Max, The Matrix, Millennium Actress, Monty Python's The Meaning of Life Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Monty Python's The Life of Brian, My Neighbor Totoro
Nightmare On Elm Street, No Country For Old Men, The Omega Man
Pan's Labyrinth, Princess Mononoke, Paprika
Rabbit-Proof Fence, The Ring, Rocky, The Running Man Samurai Fiction, Scarface, Seven Samurai
The Shawshank Redemption, The Silence of the Lambs, Spirited Away, Suicide Club, Survive Style 5+ The Terminator (1 & 2), There Will Be Blood, To Kill A Mockingbird, Tokyo Godfathers, Trainspotting V For Vendetta, Watership Down, The Wizard Of Oz, The World's Fastest Indian Yojimbo, Zulu