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i'm as confused as you are, sir. something happens here.
something strange and vague and ambiguous and unpredictable and bizarre and odd and bipolar.
clicks above!

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I am CURRENTLY:
- Reading Catch-22
- Playing Gang Garrison 2
- Listening to the Red Alert 2 soundtrack (because it was completely orgasmic)
- Wondering if I'm either being overly optimistic or pessimistic
- Still using Daily Drop Caps
- Watching mikelat play through Mass Effect 2 and Bioshock 2. He's the most awesome thing I've ever found, I swear.

how bizarre. It could be kwokwy, but it's actually
VIVIAN!
I am 17, and I try to do art, which sometimes fail in spectacular, self-destructive ways!
Other times, it works out relatively fine, and I am happy for the moment!
I like thinking. Thinking is fun, especially if you're listening to music. You know, nice music.
Being close to someone works pretty good as well, I guess.
i am dazed and confused! This is where i put all my un-personal items out on display.
If you break anything, you will be forced to pay for it!

Prices start from an ice cream cone cupcake and counting. :)

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(polka dot miracle) says: hi
BRAND! says: good morning!
BRAND! says: what have you been up to?
(polka dot miracle) says: oh
(polka dot miracle) says: well, have you ever wondered what would happen if you suddenly just stopped ... sleeping or something?
BRAND! says: -.=
BRAND! says: peculiar question
(polka dot miracle) says: it's just been something that i've been thinking about recently
(polka dot miracle) says: i think it's the lack of sleep
BRAND! says: :o
BRAND! says: insomnia?
(polka dot miracle) says: something like that
(polka dot miracle) says: it's really really irritating
(polka dot miracle) says: because i really just want to sleep, sometimes
BRAND! says: oh no
BRAND! says: started only recently?
(polka dot miracle) says: no, had it for some time
(polka dot miracle) says: but it's like getting worse recently
BRAND! says: stressed? :)
(polka dot miracle) says: idk
(polka dot miracle) says: maybe
(polka dot miracle) says: but there's probably other reasons too
BRAND! says: oh like what?
(polka dot miracle) says: hah
(polka dot miracle) says: you tell me
BRAND! says: i wouldn't know
BRAND! says: hmm, why don't you see a doctor?
(polka dot miracle) says: i haven't told my parents
BRAND! says: :o why not?
(polka dot miracle) says: it's really a private matter, i guess
(polka dot miracle) says: maybe i'm just growing up or something
(polka dot miracle) says: idk
BRAND! says: growing up?
BRAND! says: oh, not sleeping gives you hallucinations
BRAND! says: :)
(polka dot miracle) says: well!
(polka dot miracle) says: that explains a lot
BRAND! says: hmm what's that supposed to mean?
(polka dot miracle) says: sometimes i think i see things that people don't notice, i guess
(polka dot miracle) says: or maybe they just don't care
(polka dot miracle) says: or maybe i'm just hallucinating
BRAND! says: you haven't been sleeping enough, that's why
BRAND! says: oh, but what do you see?
(polka dot miracle) says: um, nothing very interesting
(polka dot miracle) says: i just imagine a lot of things, i suppose
(polka dot miracle) says: idk why, but i always imagine that there's a heaven welcoming committee if i ever sleep well
BRAND! says: hahaha
BRAND! says: is that good?
(polka dot miracle) says: better than nothing
(polka dot miracle) says: ahhhh god
(polka dot miracle) says: i'm actually thinking of taking pills
(polka dot miracle) says: so that i can sleep
BRAND! says: pills?
BRAND! says: isn't that a bit drastic
(polka dot miracle) says: drastic situations needs drastic solutions
(polka dot miracle) says: i haven't slept properly for a long long time
(polka dot miracle) says: haven't you noticed my eye bags? haha
BRAND! says: o.o
BRAND! says: not really
BRAND! says: you have eye bags?
(polka dot miracle) says: mmm
(polka dot miracle) says: they're quite obvious to me
(polka dot miracle) says: when i look at the mirror, it's like looking at a pug or something
BRAND! says: ohhhhhh!
BRAND! says: i haven't noticed, sorry
(polka dot miracle) says: it's okay
(polka dot miracle) says: i suppose it's not very easy to
(polka dot miracle) says: but it's just something i have to live with, i suppose
(polka dot miracle) says: haha
BRAND! says: but will pills help?
BRAND! says: aren't there some side effects or something
(polka dot miracle) says: haha who cares?
(polka dot miracle) says: i just want to sleep
BRAND! says: i guess...
BRAND! says: don't overdose!!!
(polka dot miracle) says: i'll just take enough to make me fall asleep
(polka dot miracle) says: for a long time
(polka dot miracle) says: so that i'll be properly rested
BRAND! says: you really should let your parents know
BRAND! says: could be dangerous
(polka dot miracle) says: no, they don't need to
(polka dot miracle) says: they'll make such a huge fuss
(polka dot miracle) says: besides, i'm just being independent
BRAND! says: :/
(polka dot miracle) says: if you were really tired, wouldn't you do anything to sleep?
BRAND! says: hahaha i suppose
BRAND! says: i usually just die on my bed
(polka dot miracle) says: mmm
(polka dot miracle) says: otherwise you'll go crazy
(polka dot miracle) says: after a hard day
BRAND! says: awwwww
BRAND! says: now i'm actually getting quite sleepy
(polka dot miracle) says: oh haha
(polka dot miracle) says: you make me jealous
BRAND! says: :)
BRAND! says: maybe you should tell yourself stories
BRAND! says: so you'll feel sleepy too
(polka dot miracle) says: tried that before!
(polka dot miracle) says: it just made me feel...
(polka dot miracle) says: idk
(polka dot miracle) says: i suppose i just got bored of it after a while though
(polka dot miracle) says: stories don't really help much
(polka dot miracle) says: i'm still not sleepy
BRAND! says: oh no
BRAND! says: have you tried drinking warm milk or something?
BRAND! says: helps to sleep on a full stomach, something like that
(polka dot miracle) says: blah
(polka dot miracle) says: comfort foods are overrated
(polka dot miracle) says: the stomach's a funny thing
(polka dot miracle) says: treat it well today, and it'll just cry out for more tomorrow
BRAND! says: hmm, you sound cranky
(polka dot miracle) says: i'm tired
(polka dot miracle) says: for so long
BRAND! says: guess you really have to try taking the pills, don't you?
BRAND! says: to help you sleep
(polka dot miracle) says: think i should?
BRAND! says: uh huh
BRAND! says: sleeping's better than being awake and being crabby
(polka dot miracle) says: crabs
(polka dot miracle) says: i wonder if crabs feel anything when they get smashed
(polka dot miracle) says: apparently lobsters don't have pain sensors
(polka dot miracle) says: so boiling really doesn't affect them much
(polka dot miracle) says: except killing them
BRAND! says: o.o
BRAND! says: interesting
(polka dot miracle) says: actually sleeping doesn't appeal to me much anymore
(polka dot miracle) says: sleeping's paralysis of the whole body
(polka dot miracle) says: you wouldn't know if you get killed halfway
BRAND! says: uh
BRAND! says: sleeping's like a coma
BRAND! says: partial death of the body
(polka dot miracle) says: i wonder if dead people are actually dead
(polka dot miracle) says: maybe they're just really deep sleepers
(polka dot miracle) says: waiting to be woken up
BRAND! says: you think too much!
BRAND! says: go and take your pills :)
(polka dot miracle) says: oh, well
(polka dot miracle) says: i should
(polka dot miracle) says: i actually feel sleepy now
(polka dot miracle) says: how odd
BRAND! says: yayy!
(polka dot miracle) says: brb
(polka dot miracle) says: okay, taken
(polka dot miracle) says: i shall go and sleep now
BRAND! says: hahaha it's like superearly
BRAND! says: but have a pleasant sleep anyway!
(polka dot miracle) says: oh, we shall see
(polka dot miracle) says: i suppose it's goodbye, then
BRAND! says: see ya!
(polka dot miracle) says: that might be a bit tricky, actually...
(polka dot miracle) says: i'm planning on a really deep sleep
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(polka dot miracle) has signed out
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BRAND! says: -.=
BRAND! says: what was THAT about?
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1.2.3.4 has signed in
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BRAND! says: oh, morning!
1.2.3.4 says: hello :D

it's all slipping past me I have no idea what to put in here for the time being, but we will deal with it!
Why doesn't everything turn out the way we want it to?
It won't be as fun, of course, but still.
unremovable layout by leen
textures from 1 2 3 4
pictures from 1 2
polaroids from sxc
and lots of hugs and kisses from me

the ambassadors of songs these are done in three, you see? they get me through the day.
yes, I lie quite a bit. get over it.
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Animal Collective, Aphex Twin, Arcade Fire
Architecture in Helsinki, Asobi Seksu, Babyshambles, Babybird
Basement Jaxx, Battles, Bauhaus, Billy Talent
The Blood Brothers, Blood Red Shoes, Camera Obscura
Children of Bodom, Circle Takes The Square, Crass
Crystal Castles, Cut Copy, Cansei de Ser Sexy, Daft Punk
The Death Set, Devin Townsend, Dip
Dirty Pretty Things, Does It Offend You, Yeah?, Elbow
Electric Light Orchestra, Electric Six, Fake Shark - Real Zombie!
The Fiery Furnaces, The Flashbulb, Foals, Fool's Gold
Franz Ferdinand, Fuck Buttons, Gallows, Genghis Tron
Genki Rockets, Girls, The Go! Team
Gold Panda, Gorillaz, Grizzly Bear
HEARTSREVOLUTION, The Horrors, Ida Maria, Iggy Pop
Jason Forrest, Jimi Hendrix, Joy Division, The Joy Formidable
Justice, Late Of The Pier, Les Savy Fav, The Libertines
Lily Allen, Los Campesinos!, M83
Manic Street Preachers, Marilyn Manson, Marmaduke Duke, Matt And Kim
Metric, MGMT, Midnight Juggernauts, Mindless Self Indulgence
Modest Mouse, Mors Principium Est, Muse
My Robot Friend, Nine Inch Nails, No Age
Now, Now Every Children, The Number Twelve Looks Like You, The Octopus Project, Oh No! Oh My!
Pete and the Pirates, Phoenix, Peter Bjorn And John
The Pipettes, Plastic Operator, Pretty Girls Make Graves
Prinzhorn Dance School, The Prodigy, Queens Of The Stone Age
Radiohead, Ratatat, Ramona Falls
Red Wire Black Wire, Regina Spektor, Robots In Disguise
Rolo Tomassi, Sex Pistols, St.Vincent, The Strange Boys, The Strokes(<3)
The Subways, Sugar Army, Super Furry Animals, Tera Melos, Test Icicles
Them Crooked Vultures, The Tiger Lillies, Tokyo Police Club, Towers Of London
TV On The Radio, Ulver, The Velvet Underground, Vitalic
The Walkmen, The Vines, Wavves, The White Stripes
The XX, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Yo La Tengo

the ambassadors of words I'll think up of it as i go along, because my eyes are currently red and sore from lack of sleep.
You can have Watchmen, though.

the ambassadors of film 28 Days Later, 9 Souls, A Clockwork Orange, Alien(s)
All Quiet On The Western Front
, American Psycho, Battle Royale, Blade Runner, Batman (Begins & The Dark Knight)
The Birds, Blazing Saddles, The Blob, Brokeback Mountain
Brotherhood of the Wolf, Catch Me If You Can, Chaplin
Children Of Men, City of God, Clerks, Dog Day Afternoon
Donnie Darko, Dr. Strangelove, Dune
El Topo, Empire of the Sun, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
The Exorcist, Fear and Loathing In Las Vegas, Full Metal Jacket
Ghost World, The Godfather, Godzilla (Japanese series), The Good, The Bad and The Ugly
Goodfellas, Graveyard of the Fireflies, Groundhog Day, Hellboy (series)
Howl's Moving Castle, Identity, The Iron Giant, Jesus Christ Superstar
Mad Max, The Matrix, Millennium Actress, Monty Python's The Meaning of Life
Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Monty Python's The Life of Brian, My Neighbor Totoro
Nightmare On Elm Street, No Country For Old Men, The Omega Man
Pan's Labyrinth, Princess Mononoke, Paprika
Rabbit-Proof Fence, The Ring, Rocky, The Running Man
Samurai Fiction, Scarface, Seven Samurai
The Shawshank Redemption, The Silence of the Lambs, Spirited Away, Suicide Club, Survive Style 5+
The Terminator (1 & 2), There Will Be Blood, To Kill A Mockingbird, Tokyo Godfathers, Trainspotting
V For Vendetta, Watership Down, The Wizard Of Oz, The World's Fastest Indian
Yojimbo, Zulu