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i'm as confused as you are, sir. something happens here.
something strange and vague and ambiguous and unpredictable and bizarre and odd and bipolar.
clicks above!

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I am CURRENTLY:
- Reading Catch-22
- Playing Gang Garrison 2
- Listening to the Red Alert 2 soundtrack (because it was completely orgasmic)
- Wondering if I'm either being overly optimistic or pessimistic
- Still using Daily Drop Caps
- Watching mikelat play through Mass Effect 2 and Bioshock 2. He's the most awesome thing I've ever found, I swear.

how bizarre. It could be kwokwy, but it's actually
VIVIAN!
I am 17, and I try to do art, which sometimes fail in spectacular, self-destructive ways!
Other times, it works out relatively fine, and I am happy for the moment!
I like thinking. Thinking is fun, especially if you're listening to music. You know, nice music.
Being close to someone works pretty good as well, I guess.
i am dazed and confused! This is where i put all my un-personal items out on display.
If you break anything, you will be forced to pay for it!

Prices start from an ice cream cone cupcake and counting. :)

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This is fiction.
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I still couldn't get over everything. Ever since that night, everything had been so alienating to me. I never felt quite so much as an outsider before.

Perhaps it was because I grew up, but I never connected with anyone the same way anymore. Not physically, not socially, and certainly not emotionally. You remember, Paul, that night? Do you? I think you do.

But, nevermind. Let's refresh both our memories, yes? After all, it's just the two of us, the night is long, and we both still have our lives ahead of us. Oh, how poignant.

Ah yes, that night. What did we call it, the 'Fright Night'? How immature we both were, but then again, it was quite a shocker, you have to admit. Never would have imagined waking one day and ... not understanding a word of everyone else, would you? It was incredibly surreal how it all happened, though. I was sound asleep when it all happened. Slept like a log on that night. Funny how that happens, yes? I always did enjoy staying up late, but I just happened to be so tired on that one night of that one day of that one month of that one year. What are the chances? No, please don't try to calculate it.

You were asleep too, weren't you? I was asleep, so I guess you must have been to. Otherwise, you wouldn't be right here with me. You'll simply be part of them. Anyway, anyway! What happened that night? Well, we shall never know, will we? We can only guess. Or maybe the both of us are just having hallucinations. Mass hallucinations of everyone else in the world except for us.

I didn't hear anything when I was sleeping. Otherwise, I would have woken up. I'm such a light sleeper, you know? I used to suffer from insomnia, in a way, because of that. I would be sleeping and then "Oh god, the wind!", and I would spent the rest of the night in fitful bursts of paralysis. Did you hear anything? No? Alright, then.

You really are just me, aren't you? You're like a parrot. Not to say that I dislike parrots, but just saying that you're one. Don't get offended, please! You're the only one left in the world apart from me. We need each other. Don't we? I think we do.

Anyway, Paul, remember waking up the next day? What a doozy! I thought I was still dreaming, but how could I have been dreaming for the whole day? It was like a surrealist painting, didn't you remember, the first time you saw, before you got used to it? I first realised something was wrong when I looked out of the window and saw an object walk past, which sparked a memory of the Elephant Celebes. What was yours? Oh, the same thing?

We live such similiar lives! Tut tut, Paul, everyone needs a little variety in their lives.

I would have liked to say that the sight freaked me out, or even induced a reaction of some sort apart of slight shock, but I would have been lying. I can still remember the exact words I said then. Now, this might be a letdown to you, but really, all I remember doing was a slight twitch of the eyebrows, a loosening of the mouth, and a short exclamation of surprise. "Oh, that's weird." Was that normal? Oh, why am I even asking you, of all people? I do miss normality. Well, I mean, normality I could have actually obtained, somehow. It's too late now, isn't it? Yes, it is, I realised.

At that time, I thought it was an isolated incident. You know, you see one odd sight, but what's the matter? It's just one, you know. You move on with life. But that day, walking past Mister Elephant were a bunch of (I assume now, but at that time, I was quite confused) giggling schoolgirls. The strangest thing, at that moment, was that they were all perfectly normal. You know, apart from the heads. I can still remember how I frantically went to check my own head in the mirror, but it remained unchanged. As I went back to the window of oddities, I began to wonder if, by any chance, the circus freakshow had come to town.

At that, I remember I went downstairs to ask my parents for their opinion. What a shock. What a shock. What a fucking shock.

Oh dear, I seem to have run out of time. You know, the best (and worst, if you think about it) thing about today is that I don't understand a word of what anyone is saying. Yes, Father, please continue producing weird noises, because I have no idea what you are trying to express.

You know, I have a feeling he's a bit angry. His noises seem to be a tad louder than usual. Anyway, I will talk to you soon. We shall get through this together, yes? Yes, wonderful.

Yours,
Mr. Duke

it's all slipping past me I have no idea what to put in here for the time being, but we will deal with it!
Why doesn't everything turn out the way we want it to?
It won't be as fun, of course, but still.
unremovable layout by leen
textures from 1 2 3 4
pictures from 1 2
polaroids from sxc
and lots of hugs and kisses from me

the ambassadors of songs these are done in three, you see? they get me through the day.
yes, I lie quite a bit. get over it.
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Animal Collective, Aphex Twin, Arcade Fire
Architecture in Helsinki, Asobi Seksu, Babyshambles, Babybird
Basement Jaxx, Battles, Bauhaus, Billy Talent
The Blood Brothers, Blood Red Shoes, Camera Obscura
Children of Bodom, Circle Takes The Square, Crass
Crystal Castles, Cut Copy, Cansei de Ser Sexy, Daft Punk
The Death Set, Devin Townsend, Dip
Dirty Pretty Things, Does It Offend You, Yeah?, Elbow
Electric Light Orchestra, Electric Six, Fake Shark - Real Zombie!
The Fiery Furnaces, The Flashbulb, Foals, Fool's Gold
Franz Ferdinand, Fuck Buttons, Gallows, Genghis Tron
Genki Rockets, Girls, The Go! Team
Gold Panda, Gorillaz, Grizzly Bear
HEARTSREVOLUTION, The Horrors, Ida Maria, Iggy Pop
Jason Forrest, Jimi Hendrix, Joy Division, The Joy Formidable
Justice, Late Of The Pier, Les Savy Fav, The Libertines
Lily Allen, Los Campesinos!, M83
Manic Street Preachers, Marilyn Manson, Marmaduke Duke, Matt And Kim
Metric, MGMT, Midnight Juggernauts, Mindless Self Indulgence
Modest Mouse, Mors Principium Est, Muse
My Robot Friend, Nine Inch Nails, No Age
Now, Now Every Children, The Number Twelve Looks Like You, The Octopus Project, Oh No! Oh My!
Pete and the Pirates, Phoenix, Peter Bjorn And John
The Pipettes, Plastic Operator, Pretty Girls Make Graves
Prinzhorn Dance School, The Prodigy, Queens Of The Stone Age
Radiohead, Ratatat, Ramona Falls
Red Wire Black Wire, Regina Spektor, Robots In Disguise
Rolo Tomassi, Sex Pistols, St.Vincent, The Strange Boys, The Strokes(<3)
The Subways, Sugar Army, Super Furry Animals, Tera Melos, Test Icicles
Them Crooked Vultures, The Tiger Lillies, Tokyo Police Club, Towers Of London
TV On The Radio, Ulver, The Velvet Underground, Vitalic
The Walkmen, The Vines, Wavves, The White Stripes
The XX, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Yo La Tengo

the ambassadors of words I'll think up of it as i go along, because my eyes are currently red and sore from lack of sleep.
You can have Watchmen, though.

the ambassadors of film 28 Days Later, 9 Souls, A Clockwork Orange, Alien(s)
All Quiet On The Western Front
, American Psycho, Battle Royale, Blade Runner, Batman (Begins & The Dark Knight)
The Birds, Blazing Saddles, The Blob, Brokeback Mountain
Brotherhood of the Wolf, Catch Me If You Can, Chaplin
Children Of Men, City of God, Clerks, Dog Day Afternoon
Donnie Darko, Dr. Strangelove, Dune
El Topo, Empire of the Sun, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
The Exorcist, Fear and Loathing In Las Vegas, Full Metal Jacket
Ghost World, The Godfather, Godzilla (Japanese series), The Good, The Bad and The Ugly
Goodfellas, Graveyard of the Fireflies, Groundhog Day, Hellboy (series)
Howl's Moving Castle, Identity, The Iron Giant, Jesus Christ Superstar
Mad Max, The Matrix, Millennium Actress, Monty Python's The Meaning of Life
Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Monty Python's The Life of Brian, My Neighbor Totoro
Nightmare On Elm Street, No Country For Old Men, The Omega Man
Pan's Labyrinth, Princess Mononoke, Paprika
Rabbit-Proof Fence, The Ring, Rocky, The Running Man
Samurai Fiction, Scarface, Seven Samurai
The Shawshank Redemption, The Silence of the Lambs, Spirited Away, Suicide Club, Survive Style 5+
The Terminator (1 & 2), There Will Be Blood, To Kill A Mockingbird, Tokyo Godfathers, Trainspotting
V For Vendetta, Watership Down, The Wizard Of Oz, The World's Fastest Indian
Yojimbo, Zulu