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i'm as confused as you are, sir. something happens here.
something strange and vague and ambiguous and unpredictable and bizarre and odd and bipolar.
clicks above!

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I am CURRENTLY:
- Reading Catch-22
- Playing Gang Garrison 2
- Listening to the Red Alert 2 soundtrack (because it was completely orgasmic)
- Wondering if I'm either being overly optimistic or pessimistic
- Still using Daily Drop Caps
- Watching mikelat play through Mass Effect 2 and Bioshock 2. He's the most awesome thing I've ever found, I swear.

how bizarre. It could be kwokwy, but it's actually
VIVIAN!
I am 17, and I try to do art, which sometimes fail in spectacular, self-destructive ways!
Other times, it works out relatively fine, and I am happy for the moment!
I like thinking. Thinking is fun, especially if you're listening to music. You know, nice music.
Being close to someone works pretty good as well, I guess.
i am dazed and confused! This is where i put all my un-personal items out on display.
If you break anything, you will be forced to pay for it!

Prices start from an ice cream cone cupcake and counting. :)

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the big reveal.
THE CIRCUS IS COMING.
did you see the latest? the circus -
the circus, it's coming?
are you sure? it can't be happening, not to our town.
as true as your heart leads you, it's really happening.
our town, how will it cope? it's never had this happen before.
oh?
well, rather, it's been a long time. is it a good circus?

anticipation, hopes, wishes.
coming, coming, soon.
won't you visit the new sweet shop, ma? the circus is coming to town.
no, not tonight, dear. the circus is arriving.

fevered prayers, whispered dreams, childish longing.
lying awake in bed, wondering how it'll be, will it be as good as anticipated?
what if it isn't what i hoped it would be?
don't be so pessimistic, it's the circus. the circus always delivers.
i sure hope so. it will, won't it?

unanswered questions, fatigue sets in, queries grate on the trained ears.
pitch perfect mania of town, folie à deux, imposing or simultaneous.
the parents are getting concerned.
it's all rather silly, isn't it? the circus; it isn't even that special.
yes, the children are getting too excited.
they aren't listening to us. what should we do?
we wait it out. they'll get over it.

uncertainty, doubt, ambiguity.
what if they don't listen to us? what if the whole town goes mad?

burning, burning, burning desire.
why won't the circus come? why can't it come sooner?
why must it tease us so? why can't it make us happy and come?
it'll be so fun, the whole of us, at the circus, if only it came.
will it come soon?
can't it come earlier?

insecurity of the individual, epidemic, community spread.
rumours have spread, things have been said, no one is sure.
i heard the circus may be going to another town!
aaah! honestly?
paranoia, paranoia, the town is burning.
HEADLINE: WHAT IF THE CIRCUS MOVES AWAY?
i sure hope they don't, the kids will be so heartbroken.
will you be sad, if the circus moves away?
i... i'm not sure.

hope, blind hope, blind optimism.
perhaps it was all a lie, perhaps it was just a voice in the wind, perhaps the circus is indeed coming to town.
is the circus really coming to town? really? really really?
we can hope.
anticipation only serves to heighten the appetite.

THE CIRCUS IS IN TOWN.
relief, sweet relief, the end of longing and suffering.
look, ma, look at those funny men with the long legs. are they daddy long legs, ma?
no, you silly boy, those are stilts.
oh. i thought they were deformed.
pa! pa! look at that clown juggle ten eggs! how funny he is!
you'll get bored of it, soon, honey.
lions! how exciting! will they eat the trainer? i hope they do!
yes, that would be interesting.

and before you know it, the circus is gone.
was it as fun as you remembered?

it's all slipping past me I have no idea what to put in here for the time being, but we will deal with it!
Why doesn't everything turn out the way we want it to?
It won't be as fun, of course, but still.
unremovable layout by leen
textures from 1 2 3 4
pictures from 1 2
polaroids from sxc
and lots of hugs and kisses from me

the ambassadors of songs these are done in three, you see? they get me through the day.
yes, I lie quite a bit. get over it.
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Animal Collective, Aphex Twin, Arcade Fire
Architecture in Helsinki, Asobi Seksu, Babyshambles, Babybird
Basement Jaxx, Battles, Bauhaus, Billy Talent
The Blood Brothers, Blood Red Shoes, Camera Obscura
Children of Bodom, Circle Takes The Square, Crass
Crystal Castles, Cut Copy, Cansei de Ser Sexy, Daft Punk
The Death Set, Devin Townsend, Dip
Dirty Pretty Things, Does It Offend You, Yeah?, Elbow
Electric Light Orchestra, Electric Six, Fake Shark - Real Zombie!
The Fiery Furnaces, The Flashbulb, Foals, Fool's Gold
Franz Ferdinand, Fuck Buttons, Gallows, Genghis Tron
Genki Rockets, Girls, The Go! Team
Gold Panda, Gorillaz, Grizzly Bear
HEARTSREVOLUTION, The Horrors, Ida Maria, Iggy Pop
Jason Forrest, Jimi Hendrix, Joy Division, The Joy Formidable
Justice, Late Of The Pier, Les Savy Fav, The Libertines
Lily Allen, Los Campesinos!, M83
Manic Street Preachers, Marilyn Manson, Marmaduke Duke, Matt And Kim
Metric, MGMT, Midnight Juggernauts, Mindless Self Indulgence
Modest Mouse, Mors Principium Est, Muse
My Robot Friend, Nine Inch Nails, No Age
Now, Now Every Children, The Number Twelve Looks Like You, The Octopus Project, Oh No! Oh My!
Pete and the Pirates, Phoenix, Peter Bjorn And John
The Pipettes, Plastic Operator, Pretty Girls Make Graves
Prinzhorn Dance School, The Prodigy, Queens Of The Stone Age
Radiohead, Ratatat, Ramona Falls
Red Wire Black Wire, Regina Spektor, Robots In Disguise
Rolo Tomassi, Sex Pistols, St.Vincent, The Strange Boys, The Strokes(<3)
The Subways, Sugar Army, Super Furry Animals, Tera Melos, Test Icicles
Them Crooked Vultures, The Tiger Lillies, Tokyo Police Club, Towers Of London
TV On The Radio, Ulver, The Velvet Underground, Vitalic
The Walkmen, The Vines, Wavves, The White Stripes
The XX, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Yo La Tengo

the ambassadors of words I'll think up of it as i go along, because my eyes are currently red and sore from lack of sleep.
You can have Watchmen, though.

the ambassadors of film 28 Days Later, 9 Souls, A Clockwork Orange, Alien(s)
All Quiet On The Western Front
, American Psycho, Battle Royale, Blade Runner, Batman (Begins & The Dark Knight)
The Birds, Blazing Saddles, The Blob, Brokeback Mountain
Brotherhood of the Wolf, Catch Me If You Can, Chaplin
Children Of Men, City of God, Clerks, Dog Day Afternoon
Donnie Darko, Dr. Strangelove, Dune
El Topo, Empire of the Sun, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
The Exorcist, Fear and Loathing In Las Vegas, Full Metal Jacket
Ghost World, The Godfather, Godzilla (Japanese series), The Good, The Bad and The Ugly
Goodfellas, Graveyard of the Fireflies, Groundhog Day, Hellboy (series)
Howl's Moving Castle, Identity, The Iron Giant, Jesus Christ Superstar
Mad Max, The Matrix, Millennium Actress, Monty Python's The Meaning of Life
Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Monty Python's The Life of Brian, My Neighbor Totoro
Nightmare On Elm Street, No Country For Old Men, The Omega Man
Pan's Labyrinth, Princess Mononoke, Paprika
Rabbit-Proof Fence, The Ring, Rocky, The Running Man
Samurai Fiction, Scarface, Seven Samurai
The Shawshank Redemption, The Silence of the Lambs, Spirited Away, Suicide Club, Survive Style 5+
The Terminator (1 & 2), There Will Be Blood, To Kill A Mockingbird, Tokyo Godfathers, Trainspotting
V For Vendetta, Watership Down, The Wizard Of Oz, The World's Fastest Indian
Yojimbo, Zulu